In the name of the most compassionate The

ﺑﻪ ﻧﺎﻡ ﻣﻬﺮﺑﺎﻥ ﺗﺮﻳﻦ In the name of the most compassionate

The king sent an agent to a far away land for a special mission. The agent set off to that land settled. Years passed and the agent got busy living his own life; he started his own business, got married, and had kids.

Finally one day a messenger from the king came to the agent, telling him that the king requests his presence urgently. When the agent went to the king, he asked the agent if he had been successful in doing what he’d been assigned for. But the agent started telling the king about his life these past years:

“Your highness, when I entered the city I came by a store, you know trading there is so different from here_ yes, I went to the shop keeper and asked him about the employment and how could one_” “Did you do as you were told? ” the king interrupted.

But the agent goes on: “um… yes your highness I was saying, when I started my business there I realized I was falling in love with the shopkeeper’s daughter, so I married her and_” Again the king interrupted: “That’s all fine, but did you do what you were sent there for? ”

But there was the agent talking about his life: “…and not long after, God blessed us with our children we realized we could hardly make both ends meet. We started to make plans and soon our business got off the ground and we were suddenly the land lord of many_” The king looked at his agent, stared in his eyes, opened his mouth and said: “It’s all well and fine, they’re all good things, good news. But I only ask you this: did you, beside all this, do what I sent you there to do? ”

That is me, standing before my love, my God, head down with no answers for him… with shame… I was meant to fall in love with him and only him. I don’t know through all these years, since I was born and grew up, until now, I have been busy with what that I shouldn’t have?

I’ve been absorbed into what colorful and seductive stories and never looked back, fell for what things, created fears of what scarecrows, made so much fuss about what things, wandered which paths, been trapped in which “must”s and “mustn't”s that I shouldn’t have?

And what moments I didn’t live, what words I didn’t say, what barriers and lock and clichés I didn’t banish that I should have…

What hearts I didn’t make fall in love with God that I should have…